Thursday, January 17, 2013

No More Perfect Homes

Welcome to the Third Thursday Blog Hop with Hearts at Home!
So we are supposed to write about not having perfect homes.  That is almost too easy to write about.  Now I admit I do try to pick up and put "my best foot forward".  The Mommy Monster does show up when the kitchen has exploded for several days and the dust bunnies are large enough for saddles!  But for several years now I have told people that my gift is hospitality, not entertaining.  I realized if I stressed out and wanted my house "perfect" before inviting anyone 1) I wouldn't enjoy the company when they came and 2) I would never have anyone over.  Life is much more fun when you share it with people.
I also come from a long line of "starters".  I am very good at starting projects and getting them "mostly done", but then seem to move on before it is completely done.  I am working on that and with God's help I have actually completed a few projects around the house, but there is still a constant stream of unfinished items around the house.
Most of all, embracing my imperfect house allows me to tell some great stories and practice making lemonade out of lemons. A few years ago we noticed our bedroom ceiling sagging 6-7 inches over the bed.  Our response...quick, turn the lights out and pray, "now we lay me down to sleep, please God don't let the ceiling come crashing down on us tonight!"  In order to more fully apprectiate this situation, I need to tell you that we have a radiant heat system in our home and the ceiling is several inches of concrete with copper pipes full of water runing through it.  It would leave a mark if it fell!  The next day, my husband had some friends come over and they devised a system of 2x4s and 4 metal poles to hold the ceiling up until the best way of fixing it was discovered.  I had an indoor pergola in my bedroom!  After a few months, I decided I had to make the best of it and that wasn't going to include music and a trench coat (way too many comments about the poles from friends, wink, wink).  So I went to Wal Mart, purchased some silk flowers and ivy and proceeded to decorate the pergola using the staple gun and some pretty blue gauze material as an accent!  Then at Christmas, I went to the Dollar Store and got some glitter snowflakes.  They almost made it for 2 Christmases.
After about a year and a half, we said good-bye to the pergola and re-attached the ceiling using screws about every 3-4 inches along every beam.  You can still see all the screws and the crack in the ceiling and we also have the raw sheet rock around the sliding glass door to the porch from over a year ago.  Add to that, we recently moved the door into our bathroom over to accomadate a new closet so we have raw sheet rock on the other side of the bedroom and missing tile going into the bathroom.  I honestly don't remember what my bedroom looks like without holes in it!
During this whole time, we had many cookouts with friends and even hosted a wedding reception in our backyard (we did plant a lot of new plants and didn't let anyone upstairs!) My house is not perfect, but it's a perfect place to live and enjoy with friends and family.

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Saturday, January 12, 2013

Job Experience

Why is it that even after over 17 years of experience, I can still feel clueless as a mom?  After several years of doing other jobs, most people atleast feel competent, if not close to comfortable or maybe even expert.  Somehow motherhood does not work the same way.
I love my kids and they are good kids, normal, but good overall.  Every now and again I start feeling like I am doing okay, and then it happens....  Maybe God thinks I am getting prideful and need some humility or maybe my kids want to keep me on my toes, but something new comes up and I am dumbfounded again, feeling like a complete idiot and nominated for the Worst Mom Award.
I want so much to be a great mom and raise confident, independent young adults.  I want to be able to handle situations with such grace and wisdom that my kids and husband will sing my praises.  Then I get out of bed or the kids come home from school and reality strikes.  Interesting thing is, those things I struggle with myself (weakness, issues, flaws...), bug me the most when I see them in my kids.  Logically one would think if I have not "gotten the hang of it" after 29+ years (no I am not sharing the actual years), I would be understanding and patient with my kids.  Oh no, just the opposite.  I want to scream, smack them and shake them and say "Get rid of this NOW!  You don't want to deal with this when you are older!!!"
I still want to be a great mom, but I am getting better at forgiving myself for blowing it.  After all, I have had A LOT of practice blowing it.  Then I remember a phrase I learned early on in my mothering. I will trust God to fill in the gaps where I mess up, because I will mess up.  Someone else said the other day "If Iwere normal, my kids would have no character."
Maybe when I am a grandma I will feel a little more competent as a mom, but until then I will keep doing my best and praying that God will fill in the gaps.

P.S. The book No More Perfect Moms will be great anytime, but you get lots of extra freebies when you order Feb 4-9.

Monday, January 7, 2013

The Knots Prayer

This spoke to me today as I was picking up my messy office and thinking of all the things I "had not gotten to".
May it encourage you.


The Knots Prayer

Dear God.
Please untie the knots
that are in my mind,
my heart and my life.
Remove the have nots,
the can nots and the do nots
that I have in my mind.

Erase the will nots,
may nots,
might nots that my find
a home in my heart.

Release me from the could nots,
would nots and
should nots that obstruct my life.

And most of all
Dear God
I ask that you remove from my mind
my heart and my life all of the "am nots'
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought
that I am not good enough.
Amen.

-Author Known to God

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Happy New Year to Imperfection!

No More Perfect Moms Book Launch
I just finished the book No More Perfect Moms by Jill Savage and look forward to embracing my imperfections this year.  This is not going to be easy, since I am a perfectionist at heart and put way too much pressure on myself.  I do a pretty good job of looking like I have it together in front of most people, but I still struggle with feeling "good enough". 

(The funny/sad thing is, I am already falling short in my "Perfection Infection" because I am trying to write the "perfect" blog about this book, go figure!)

Jill does a beautiful job of sharing her imperfect life and her heart in a way that comforts and inspires you.  We can still be great moms, even when we have huge red zits on our chin (sore, too), Christmas letters that still have not been sent, dirty dishes in the sink, kids with some bad grades and less that stellar choices, holes in our bedroom walls and emotions that make roller coasters look like the Great Plains.  We can embrace the interuptions, the differences and inconveniences in our life and enjoy the moments.  Imperfection does not give us license to be lazy, but we should accept grace.

I'm taking the 31-day No More Perfect Moms e-mail challenge and growing.  Why not jump in?

I know you are itching to get the book yourself, but wait until Feb 4-9.  Lots of extra freebies, if you do.

No More Perfect Moms

Last but not least, check out the Hearts at Home website (www.hearts-at-home.org ) for all kinds of resources, information and encouragement or Jill Savage's website (www.jillsavage.com ).

Most of all... have a Happy Imperfect New Year!